please let me fast.

i walked in my door at about three thirty am. i was not hungry in the least. i was pleasantly full of  happy kinda-date with george feelings, & had no intention of eating.
but there were four full boxes of cookies on the counter & a half jar of peanut butter.
a bowl of cereal, five mugs of hot chocolate, a box & a half of cookies, two pb&j sandwiches, & a bunch of other horrible things later, i'm over my toilet asking why on earth this has happened again. there was no fulfillment in eating it all, nor is there any in purging it. most of it i didn't even get up, so now

i'm just a fatty fatty fatty failure. 

again.

i want need to fast. need to fix myself again. so until monday morning i will not eat. please someone join me? or even just in your own goal, but support while knowing someone is right there with you always helps me. maybe i can help you too?
tomorrow i'm going to go pick up my turbo-jam set. i'm so excited!
next week monday-friday i would like to do some sort of super-set up cleanse diet. i want to not purge once in those entire five days. (speaking from the perspective of someone who hasn't not purged for more than a few in a row in almost nine months.) i'll post up the regimen tomorrow & i would love it if anyone would like to do it or their own altered version with me.

once i get back into this right & proper without purging maybe i'll talk about life again, but until then i don't even deserve one so what's the point.

here's some skinny to get you through the night,
staystrong.
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