i've pretty much purged every piece of food i've eaten for months. & i'll eat a lot of food, sometimes a few dinners before i realize i already ate, i'm just now full because i already purged.
it'll be too tempting at home to purge, because it'll be so easy.
i need to commit to this before i go home; i need to make a fresh start & begin before i get there.
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the problem is, what should i commit too?
going back to full ana?
that's what i want, what i miss. ..
but if i can't, if i don't make it, i'll end up back on the painful path of binging & purging.
so what is it that i want to do?
& can i figure that out by tomorrow?
i'm no one to encourage you to harm your body....so i would say restrict. purging puts your body through incredible trauma
ReplyDeletegood luck. I hope you've got thing figured out and you're on the right track. xo
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