i would like to understand how it is you're supposed to go about sleep.

life & sleep are hard, especially when;
- you have too many doctor ordered tests & you can't answer all their questions.
- your mother seems determined to ruin your life, if just to make your father angry.
- the bagels you bought today are almost gone, along with a significant amount of butter.
- the guy you like wants to fuck everything that moves, including your best friend.
- your music's talking to you again.
- the ice cream won't stop yelling at you.

i have an .. ecocardiography ? in ten or so hours, & i'm going to guess sleep would be a good idea. if only i knew how to (naturally).

i might have hit 103.5lbs, but im fairly sure i would've fucked that up by now.
i'll try to step on a wicked accurate scale at a doctors office tomorrow(today) if i get a chance.

i might have got a days work (which is super because we're broke). but i'll pull a shift at a .. candy testing program .. great ..

i'll go try to sleep ? -pft- unlikely.
i'll go read.

goodnight, sweetdreams & staystrong!
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