i have a .. date?

WARNING: the following thoughts are very disconnected.

it's been a week since i last saw/talked to/made out with green.
he hasn't called.
he's probably screwing someone else.

i did find it surprising that i didn't get any angry comments on my last post telling me how stupid i was for being with green again because that's all i got in real life.
well if any of you thought it, you were right.

well .. the girl he's probably been fucking/stoned with for the last week's best friends brother, asked me to go get coffee with him.
apparently that's a date.
i wouldn't know, i don't go on them often.

lucy went to a cottage for the weekend, i miss her dearly. thank go for cell phones, we still txt every so often.
we've actually been exercising together. monday we're hoping to attend a yoga class. we keep this up & we'll hit a real gym together. she want's me to get a membership to humber collages gym so we can go together but i'm too nervous.

lucy's was making me do an exercise video for every time i thought of green.
i passed the hundreds so now it's just minutes.
i'll be working out for days..

in the last week mother has done all her regular abusive things;
called me a fattie/porkie-pig/fat/can't-stop-shoveling-in-food.
laughed in my face/laughed when i cried.
i don't think our relationship's getting better.

i've been binging a lot. my stomach's so stretched it's too hard to fast anymore.
i miss empty.
might be soon anyways; mother announced she's not supporting me anymore. no food.


date is tuesday, let's call him normal boy. NB.

so, how do dates between normal people go?

staystrong, page.