i had a different title but i changed the content of this post & the title no longer applies.

i love this song, i suggest you press play.
maybe you'd like to listen while you read?

on my way to grocery shop i saw twelve cop cars. riots braking out have limited my downtown walking trips. highway ramps are blocked & i have to go the long way everywhere.
dam G20.

today it rained - hard.
i went shopping a bit.
i have this little .. quirk? i like to buy tupperware, bake wear, silverware, flatware ect like people buy shoes.

today i bought a new baking sheet, a serving bowl set, & the cutest silicone heart-shaped muffin cups.

tomorrow i go back to school, get my classes changed & whatnot. i'll also be seeing lucy, & since the problem really begins with us being best friends, i have the unfortunate situation of talking about my problems with her, with her. i'm really bad at confrontation. good thing she understands me & wont take it the wrong way.
tried to talk to green today, over fbchat mind you, which we've really never done, but i tried none the less. it was a little awkward. i might see him tomorrow, ..
i'll go curl my hair now. (prettier that way.)
.. it's probably wrong that i still have his sweater isn't it? maybe i'll give it back tomorrow? ..


OH SHIT.
so here i had this great little diet typed out then i looked at my calendar, wednesday marks the beginning of RIBFEST. generally the greatest week of the year. summer begins, this great carnaval comes to town. i've had a little tradition with lucy of going every day bright & early from opening to closing. watching it go from dead & packed. unmentionable food products are consumed & it's harder to stay on track.
thing i love about eating out; i can always play the i'm cheap/poor card & not buy as much food. unfortunately i usually don't & i end up eating a lot. INSERT WILLPOWER THIS YEAR. gosh i hope i don't blow it.
well my diet did include fasting tuesday & that is the day before ribfest begins, anyone care to join?

it's probably more than a little odd how happy getting encouaging comments make me, especially considering i started this as i diary for myself & whenever i tell people in the real world things similar to what i've said here, their responses freak me out no matter what they've said. somehow you guys not having a face makes you all the more real.
so a BIG THANK YOU to
meg, lindsay, semira,
pollydolly, because i don't think you understand just how big of an inspiration you are to me. & you thinking i can handle this almost makes me feel like i can too. (:
almost.
alicja, [WHO HAS A BLOG THAT'S BEEN OUT LESS THAN A WEEK BUT I CAN ALREADY TELL SHE'S AMAZING *HINT HINT CHECK HER OUT.]  thanks for being so sweet.
& hello colours.true.

fast tuesday?
sweet dreams, staystrong;
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