haha - funnyfunnyfunny.

well - this week has sucked. i wanted to start the new term fresh. be positive; new room, new attitude, new average, new body. (in the spirit of being positive;) i have succeeded at failing at all of my goals.
room's still not done, i'm still negative, still not doing well in school, still too fat.
tomorrow/today is the party i was hoping to be skinny for. guess not.
i'm going to try to not eat before i go; there's gonna be a lot of delicious food there - the theme is desert.
im gonna make a food plan for the weekend.

mother is leaving on saturday.
i love it when i get the house to myself. i mean i usually do, but only for evenings. its when she leaves for days that it gets truly peaceful.
i'm going to relax. no homework. no mother. no stress.
unless that is, you count boy stress.

green still has my camera, i was hoping to get it back today so i could bring it too the party tomorrow. guess not.

bellow is a really lame story that might not intrest you at all so you probably will want to go ahead & scroll down past. unless you're as bored as i am most of the time & really wouldn't mind an ok embarrassed page story. then by all means read on.

i have an astounding amount of crap in my locker.
papers - books - pens - large stuffed pink pokemon - foam pirate swords - miniature disco balls - normal size disco balls - hula dancers - ect.
so yesterday after my exam i called mother & asked her to drive me home because i wanted to cart a bunch of this shit off, but didn't want to lug it on the bus.
while waiting for mother, because although i was waiting with a friend, mother was of course eight minutes late so i just told her to go. its freezing outside.
while waiting, in what i guess you could call an awkward place, (i was half up the walkway behind a bush? .. ,) a friend of green & lucy's walks by. i've never actually met him, just heard about him, seen him sometimes, made odd eyecontact with me. it wasn't like just a glance, he like squinted & stared. & i don't think he was trying to figure out if he knew me or something, he was just kinda .. apraising(?) me.
a few moments later a very skinny white guy steps out of a car i kinda reconize, but he's behind the bush so i can't get a good look.
he kinda tilts his head like he's trying to figure out who i am.
it's green.
& so he walks semi-towards me, but like i said, im standing in an odd spot. so he takes a few small very slow steps towards me, so i have to do the same to be able to talk. we really say nothing at all for a few seconds just "oh hey" & "yeah i had an exam". anyways;
the other friend of his who had walked off to a wall just out of my sight, to talk to a girl who isn't particularity fond of me which can't help, yells "hey -green-, what're you doing?" in a very mocking tone.
he takes a few large strides towards us & asks again.
greens like "just talking to -page- .."
the friend actually sticks out his hand, & i shake it. he introduces himself as -paris-, so i say "hello, i'm -page-".
his literal response;
"i know, i've heard a lot about you."

so my wonderful rebuttal consists of me saying oh three times in varying volumes amounting in something along the lines of ..
"oh, OH, oh.. "
(sorry. wow that was a lot of back story for really nothing but in all fairness you were warned.)

again sorry for the lame story, just wanted to say it.

today & yesterday i topped 2500.
this weekend will be veggies. & possibly small amounts of lean meat?
gonna try & take hold of the opportunity that is mother being gone & do something. but what?
.. stay in bed & read?
do workout videos in the living room ..
probably