post-fast breakfast post.

so i just fasted for (.. 24 hour? or am i supposed to count sleep? because the it'd be 36? lets just go with) 24 hours with these other two girls, Arii & Athansy. (sorry i don't know how to link to their blogs! any tips?)
i actually hadn't ever read Arii before, so i just read her last few posts; she's pretty great. defiantly following her. ;)
i simultaneously sleep-fasted(?) for 33 hours. (my requirement for that is you can't close your eyes for more than a blink, or really sit for much longer than is required, like for class, and it's a good idea to not sit anywhere comfortably, that never helps.)
was it a good idea to do that at the same time?
no.
don't. it involves waking up at 5o'clock with serious food cramps and you're in that awful exhausted state where your far to tired to move but you keep squirming. its horrid.(but i finished both essays)

during my fast, i went to school. don't know why, but after you hit the 24hour mark without sleep, you're on such a high for the next ten hours. (don't recommend it before anything reasonably important though. but today was really all just handing in isu's so it wasn't like my attention was required.) & for lunch; we went to pizza hut. i just bobbed over to the drug store & got a black tea. every single one of my friends got a personal pan pizza. 2500 calories each. that's more than a days worth on a normal diet. as a good friend, i should say something right? just to be a good friend caring about their health.
i didn't say anything though.
i watched them eat the meting cheese, and shut my mouth to any bites that were offered and any words that wanted to slip out.
1. i didn't want them to think i was crazy, because i know a few of them would have reactions like "yeah, so?" .
2. they all really enjoy it though, and i think i'm probably wrong for knowing that number, i shouldn't share my crazy.
3. one of them was the girl under 90. i wanted her to eat it.
does that make me an incredibly horrible friend?
yes.
(just for future reference though, the under 90 girls aren't ana. no ed whatsoever. i'm sure. just short, and incredibly skinny. with an epically high metabolism.)

during (when i was supposed to be in) auto, i had another talk with my friend. she really wants me to go out with green, but i think more so, she just wants me to decide. she tried to help, come up with a list or reasons why i like him, just to get me thinking about them more. 1. he's so much fun to be around, 2. he's hot. 3. he's really smart. 4. we have a lot in common.
the whole time i was like, then why does he like me? i'm not that much fun, he's so much skinnier than me (,he's been suspected of an ed .. i think it might be true), does us having so much in common really make for a great relationship?
while we were talking, i was crashing.
another friend saw us in the hall (,he knows about green, & figured that's what we were talking about), apparently i was looking a little dead. he asked if he could borrow me, drove me home.

that's it really,
but i would just like to mention, that me fasting by myself is such a failure. there were so many moments in the day where yeah, i would have had a bite if pizza here, a cookie there, but its knowing i was doing it with two other amazing girls that kept me going. so thanks!
now i'm just gonna go check how they did,
good afternoon!

----- update.

weighed in this morning at 102lbs.
not as dizzy after my 274 calorie breakfast.
i now have four followers. crazyness
so hello to Kinsey & Mina. & Arii too!
staystrong.