the worst part is that there's so much going on right now, but not posting is my motivation. i want to share my wonderful adventures of skinny, but im fat & have none. im closer to my HW than my LW/GW.
the wonderfullness that's happend has led to a few things;
1. my relationship with green is going well - easter dinner with his family tomorrow.
2. my relationship with my family is strained - three seconds ago mother threatend to drag me by my hair & throw me in my room if i didn't shut up because i spoke when she was watching tv. i spoke. my vocal cords are wrong apparently. & yesterday, i took off on an angry walk so i wouldn't kill her. angry walked for a few hours, cooled down & came home. three feet in the door & there's screaming. so yeah - it's as bad as ever.
3. those two things are negitivly effecting each other. - im crazy & unstable & never have any time out of the house to relax because im always fuming. so i try to be sane around green but it's becoming increasingly difficult. & this is why i don't have boyfriends.
i want to be 105 by my birthday, 16 days away. but there's easter to consider & it's almost 7lbs away..
im still reading your blogs, & im still talking on the tea cup.
as of monday i'll start abc, along with the troubled girl. hopefully that'll put me close enough to my goal to be able to post soon.
im going to;
play ultimate frisbee (my first authletic sport ever, & it's kinda huge here).
skip.
rockclimb hopefully?
learn to longboard.
do the thirty hour famin (for charity).
climb the CN tower (for charity even though i'm terrified of heights & wont be able to go back down ..).
do all those things because mother doesn't think i can do any.
abc.
angry walk some more because it's spring & that's exercise.
angry walk some more because it's spring & that's exercise.
look at more thinspo & talk on the cafe.
& that'll all make me happy&pretty. sleep tight, &
staystrong,
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