resolution number one.

STOP FUCKING BINGING.

a big problem i have with binging, is that i don't know when it's going to happen, & when it does, i'm almost powerless to stop it. the easy answer to this is "i should Stop Being Such a Fucking Pig & have some Self Restraint", because after all, that is what a lot of my life has been made of.

control.

to bad i don't have it all the time.

it's like something i can't help happen, & i'll loose it. (or what little bit of it i have.) & then i'll eat. i won't be picky, i'll eat sweets, pizza, ice cream, (none of which i like,) just whatever i can get my hands on. going from a tolerable 840 calorie count to easily past 3500 in an instant.

never satisfied i'm left with an ugly bloated reminder of what i had just done.

Resolution Number One: Never Binge Again.